I'm sitting in a Starbucks right now, looking out on the dreary weather. Rain, rain, go away. I'm trying to be motivated but it's not working. Maybe my latte will kick in and do the trick for me.
I see people outside walking their dogs and I find myself longing to be at home walking my own dog. Owning my day and working on my terms. Helping others and partnering together to create a better world, or at least a brighter piece of their world.
I am struggling to best define my niche for my business. My side-business-that-I-want-to-make-a-full-time-business. I am going back and forth and back and forth between focusing my efforts on entrepreneurs, mompreneurs, or the person trying to escape the corporate hell that I'm currently in and work for themself. Are these niches too small? Too specific? Or are they just what I need? Ugghhh. Why won't someone just tell me the right answer?
Found out yesterday, via a press release, that my real-world employer is having difficulties. A patent on one of my company's flagship products isn't being protected by the FDA or maybe it's my company trying to unjustly extend the patent life to ensure the company remains viable. I give it 6 months, max, til we (sales representatives) are laid off. And that should be a no-brainer for me to look at this as a great opportunity to save up as much as I can, work on building my business, but it's like I'm trying to walk through mud. Progress is being made but at a very slow process. And my mental nemesis is always at work telling me that I can't, I shouldn't, I won't and to play it safe.
He has valid points but I know he's trying to keep me from danger. And danger isn't always bad. In fact, the danger, excitement, and adrennaline that pumps through me when I think about fully owning this and running 150% forward is quite refreshing.
My coach is really helping me by giving me the support and championing that I need. Without her, I am confident that I would have given up long ago.
So where am I? I'm still here.
I go through these internal fights with myself as well. I too get fustrated that it's not happening faster and that I have to go to a place everyday that doesn't make me happy. However, I've found that when I get stuck in these thoughts of where I'm at, the weeds start growing over me and it gets worse and worse. I have found that the best remedy for that is to stay in motion moving forward. I may not be going fast, but I'm able to see and experience things that I wouldn't have if I had stayed still. These are the things that build my confidence and remind me that I'm a smart and hard working girl who can do anything she puts her mind to. And, I even find some pleasant suprises along the way that make the journey to where I want to go a little more interesting! Take care and have a great Holidy!
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